Mianmian

In the seventh year of my marriage to Zhou Jingyan, my entire drawer was filled with photos of him and other women. I hold 50% of the shares in his company, and I refuse to transfer them even if there is no money in my account. We know each other's weaknesses best, so we use sharp knives to poke at them like crazy. Today is our seventh wedding anniversary, and I want to separate from him. After all, I don’t live long... After I selected a suitable cemetery and paid for it, I dialed Zhou Jingyan’s number. [When will the money arrive? I need it urgently. 】【When will you get divorced and when will the money be paid? 】We have been married for seven years, and just hearing the word divorce lasted almost three years. [The money has arrived,] I am deeply...

In the seventh year of my marriage to Zhou Jingyan, my entire drawer was filled with photos of him and other women.

I hold 50% of the shares in his company, and I refuse to transfer them even if there is no money in my account.

We know each other's weaknesses best, so we use sharp knives to poke at them like crazy.

Today is our seventh wedding anniversary, and I want to separate from him.

After all, I don’t live long...

1

After I selected a suitable cemetery and paid for it, I dialed Zhou Jingyan’s number.

[When will the money arrive? I need it urgently. 】

[When to get divorced and when to get the money. 】We have been married for seven years, and just hearing the word divorce lasted almost three years.

[The money arrived,] I took a deep breath and pretended to be calm and said: [I will sign the divorce agreement. 】

【Oh. 】Zhou Jingyan was as sarcastic as before, which is not surprising. I do this every time in order not to be alone during the holidays.

I just miss him, how ridiculous.

I waited for three hours at the place where the cemetery was sold, but the balance in my bank card was still untouched. In the end, I had to use the money for my medical treatment.

The next day I vomited blood again and couldn't stop it for a long time. I knew that if I didn't collect some money, my life would end early.

It's not difficult to make Zhou Jingyan show up. This time I hit his weak point.

【drop! The thirty-sixth floor has arrived. 】I walked out of the elevator with my bag and bumped into a woman wearing a hip-hugging skirt.

【Mrs. Zhou. ] She smiled disdainfully and didn't take me seriously at all.

I didn't feel good about the woman Zhou Jingyan kept, and said coldly: [Two options, either let Zhou Jingyan come back and see me, or you can get out of here tomorrow. Don't think I'm joking, after all, I have this right in the company. 】

The face of the woman opposite changed, and she said harshly to me: "Wait, A Yan will never let you go!" 】

Ayan? I said why are you so familiar? Isn’t this what I used to call Zhou Jingyan? Times have changed, it's really disgusting.

Bone-piercing pain came, and I gritted my teeth and turned to leave. Zhou Jingyan felt sorry for his little lover and had to come back to settle the score with me tonight.

It was tea time, and he opened the door and walked in. He threw away the freshly brewed Tieguanyin in front of me in a rage. The hot tea splashed onto my legs, which immediately turned a small blush.

[I haven’t improved my skills in a few days, and I dare to go to the company to cause trouble for Anya. 】

I slowly wiped the water stains on my legs with a paper towel and said with a sneer: "This is not the first time. Are you worried?" 】

The anger in his eyes almost burned me, and he hit my pain with unstoppable anger, [Anya is obedient and sensible, you will never be able to match this weird temper, and you deserve to have people around you stay away from you all these years. 】

[If you keep doing this, you will die without collecting your body! 】

【Pa! 】The slap sounded, making my palms numb.

He was right. I was indeed about to die. Maybe no one would collect my body, but it didn't matter. The cemetery had been purchased and they could just give me money to bury me in it.

[Don’t worry, if I die, I will definitely turn into a ghost and you will never have a good day. 】I smiled like a harmless person and said the cruelest words.

After arguing and scolding each other for so many years, today I suddenly feel that it is meaningless, probably because I am about to die.

I threw the printed agreement in his face, "Stop pretending, sign it quickly and go to the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce." 】

[Also, if I really die one day, you must not show up at my funeral. I'm afraid that the road to reincarnation is dirty. 】

Zhou Jingyan was slapped by me, and his anger became even more intense. When he saw the divorce agreement, his expression finally changed a little.

[What new routine is this? 】He slapped the divorce agreement on the table, for fear that I would play tricks.

I rolled my eyes at him disdainfully, [Can’t read? All my equity is transferred back to you, and I leave the house. 】

Maybe I compromised too easily and didn't ask for anything, which made him even more suspicious.

The shares in my hand were transferred to me before I got married, saying that I had no relatives, so this was the dowry he prepared for me, and the other properties were his betrothal gifts.

Now I am going to get a divorce and I am going to die. The betrothal gift and dowry are just shackles to me.

After suffering so much, it would be better to take it easy when he dies.

Zhou Jingyan took the pen and signed his name without hesitation, "I will transfer the money you want to your account later, and then we will never communicate with each other until death. I hope you can do it." 】

I remembered that the money was the money I used to buy a cemetery, and now it was money for my medical treatment.

[Okay, let’s live and die together. ] I pretended to smile easily and pretended to be more anxious to separate than he was.

After writing my name, I covered the pen and said slowly: [Meet you at the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau tomorrow, don’t make me wait for you anymore. 】

Maybe because I was so unusual today, he looked at me very uneasily and said, "I should tell you this." 】

When I saw him walking outside the door, I sneered and slammed the door. I really hoped that the door panel would slap him to death.

[Zhou Jingyan, you fool. ] I cursed quietly.

2.

The next morning, I didn't wait for Zhou Jingyan, but for his driver. The driver handed me a brocade box and said respectfully:

[Madam, the young master is busy today and cannot come out. He asked me to pass this thing on to you. 】

I opened the box and there was a ring inside. This was the wedding ring for me and Zhou Jingyan.

Zhou Jingyan and I separated in the fifth year of marriage. I moved out of the villa and Anya moved in. Less than a month later, the news of Anya’s pregnancy reached my ears.

Later, Zhou Jingyan came to see me once and said something nice.

But I can’t remember the details, I just remember him saying: [Wen Sui, I want to give Anya a status so that we can get together and part ways. 】

At that time, I bit my lower lip, and the taste of blood exploded in my mouth. I had to hold back my tears and slapped him.

I asked silently in my heart: [Zhou Jingyan, you want to give her a status, have you forgotten? When I was 20 years old, you said you would give me a happy family. 】

I put the box away and looked at him, "I am no longer your wife. By the way, let him hurry up and get busy with Anya. I don't have time to wait." 】

My time is running out and I really can’t afford to wait.

Zhou Jingyan accompanied Anya in the hospital and sent me a message saying that he would be free in half a month. I sneered and didn't reply, and turned around and got on the car back to Zhoucheng.

There is no one I miss in Jiang City for a long time. The person I love was once in Zhoucheng.

I took a taxi to the orphanage, where I lived when I was a child. Standing at the door, my breathing became especially smooth, and I finally came back. 】

I am an orphan and have been in this orphanage as long as I can remember. Therefore, Zhou Jingyan is right. When I die, no one will collect my body.

Because I have no parents, let alone relatives.

I pushed open the rusty iron door and walked in. The scent of the old locust flowers hit my face. I looked up at the big tree. It was growing even better than it had been a few years ago.

When I was young, I would often climb in through this tree to find me.

A familiar and kind voice brought me back to my thoughts: [Wen Sui? 】

I turned my head, my eyes were hot and I almost cried, [Dean, long time no see. 】

[Yes, you kid. 】The dean was extremely excited when she saw me. I remember she was the best to me when I was a child. Knowing that I was small and easy to be bullied, she would secretly leave a steamed bun for me. 【I was talking about you to Song Song two days ago. 】

Song Song, whose full name is Song Qing, was my best playmate at that time. Later, we broke up because we fell in love with the same person. Thinking about it now, it is really ridiculous.

[I thought I hadn’t been back for a long time, so I came to see you. How are you doing? 】I tried my best to smile, hoping that the sadness in my eyes would not be seen through.

[Okay, everything is fine. ] The dean stared at me, stretched out his hand to touch my head, and said distressedly: [Why have you lost so much weight? Where is that child? 】

I knew she was talking about Zhou Jingyan. After all, the dean came to our wedding. At the wedding, he and I were very affectionate and received the blessings of everyone.

Zhou Jingyan used to be the most dazzling young man. He would carry his family on his back and come to the orphanage to find me. He would reach out to me from the big tree and smile as brightly as the sun: [Suisui, I will take you to watch the sunset. . 】

I turned my head, stared in that direction with great concentration, blinked my eyes and said: [He has been too busy recently and did not come with me. 】

The dean believed it and asked me to take care of myself and feel sorry for myself. I had a sore nose again and quickly found an excuse to leave before walking out of the door.

I couldn't help but stop and look back, and seemed to see the girl with a ponytail frowning under the big tree, [Ayan, you are late again, I have been waiting for you for a long time. 】

My vision was a little blurry, so I turned around and smiled.

[Zhou Jingyan, I won’t wait for you this time. 】

3.

A week later, I received a text message from Zhou Jingyan, informing me briefly and concisely to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce.

I walked to the side of the road and was about to take a taxi. I saw a woman coming across the road from a distance.

【What bad luck. ] I rubbed my eyebrows and was too lazy to respond.

【Miss Wen. 】Compared with me, a dying person, Anya looks quite good, 【Listen to A Yan, you are getting divorced today. 】

I crossed my arms and said a little impatiently: "Why, it's the same as before, I just left, and you got married on the back?" 】

Anya smiled at me and said sarcastically: "No, I'm different from you. Ah Yan loves me and marrying me is a matter of time. However, as both women, I feel you are pitiful. After arresting a man for so many years, why don't you still..." In my bed? 】

[By the way, there’s something I’m curious about. ] Anya came close to me, and the smell of perfume rushed into my nose, which made me feel sick. [You guys have been married for seven years and you haven’t had children. Is it because you are infertile or A Yan is too lazy to touch you? Otherwise, why would I be pregnant in a month? ? 】

I was so angry that my blood flowed all over my body. I couldn't bear it and slapped the disgusting woman next to me. "Say one more word and I will slap you one more time." 】

After we got married, Zhou Jingyan loved me very much and couldn't bear to let me cook or walk two more steps. He would carry me from the room to the living room. Gradually, he began to play missing for a long time and would not come home. At first, I still Go find him.

It wasn't until later that I received one photo after another from Anya, which now fills my entire drawer. That's when I realized that there was really no going back, even though I loved him very much.

[Wen...] Before Anya could finish what she said, I slapped her again with my backhand. This time, the force was stronger than before, and I slapped her whole body to the ground.

Maybe it was due to too much mood swings or excessive exertion. My stomach was churning for a while, and then the smell of blood came over me, and the sound of Zhou Jingyan's gnashing teeth could be heard in my ears: [Wen Sui! 】

【roll. ] I held my heart, refusing to show my vulnerable side, [If you say a few more words, I will beat you as well. 】

Staring into Zhou Jingyan's angry eyes, I said mercilessly: "Hurry up and get divorced. The thought of you two disgusting people in front of me makes me sick and want to die." 】

Compared with the pain I felt, the slaps I gave them were light.

[Wen Sui, don’t force me to quarrel with you at this time. 】Zhou Jingyan was so angry that he grabbed my neck and raised his hands, as if he wanted to return Anya's two slaps to me.

Until he saw the blood slowly oozing from the corner of my mouth, I cursed in my heart and couldn't hold it in.

[You are bleeding. ] Zhou Jingyan's eyes flashed with surprise, and he lowered his hand.

I pushed him away, stood still and breathed calmly, [I'm so out of breath that I'm going to die. Are you satisfied now? 】

Seeing Zhou Jingyan about to come over, I clenched my fists and decided to punch him in the face this time, "Don't pretend to be hypocritical to disgust me, get divorced or get out!" 】

It's not that I can't bear it, it's that I really don't have the strength.

Because of this little episode, Zhou Jingyan and I were silent on the way to the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce. Divorce is faster than marriage. Within ten minutes when we walked out of the door, we were already strangers.

Zhou Jingyan put the divorce certificate into his pocket, and I threw it into the trash can without hesitation.

[Wen Sui, if it weren’t for your weird temper and the fact that you don’t make people feel sorry for you, we wouldn’t be where we are today. 】

[Shut up, okay? ] I gritted my teeth and said, [Go and get married to your Anya. From now on, life, old age, sickness and death will have nothing to do with each other. 】

He sneered twice and got into the car, lowered the window, and Anya gave me a winner's smile.

[Two lunatics. ] I cursed out loud.

Even though I hated him so much, I looked at the divorce certificate in the trash can and didn't move it for a long time. What did he just say about me?

He has a weird temper and doesn't make people feel sorry for him.

[Zhou Jingyan, I should have advised you to go to a brain department. 】

Because he always forgets what he said to me. Once upon a time, he confessed his love to me while holding a large bunch of lisianthus and asked shyly: [Suisui, will you be my girlfriend? I will definitely pamper you like a child and love you forever. 】

I remembered these words for a long time, but I didn't expect that he would forget about them when he turned around, or that what he said to me was never true.

For example, the vows made at the wedding say that you will never leave.

[Zhou Jingyan, you are the best liar in the world. 】

4.

After the divorce, I returned to Zhoucheng and saw a doctor in a private hospital.

[Ms. Wen, you have missed the best treatment period and may not have a few months to live. ] What my attending doctor said was undoubtedly a death sentence for me.

But I wasn’t very sad, I just couldn’t help but sigh: [Okay, I understand. 】

Seeing that I was so young and still alone with such a serious disease, the doctor asked with concern: "Where is your family?" 】

I stared at the white walls of the hospital and was distracted, untimely remembering the day I walked out of the orphanage door in the early years.

Zhou Jingyan held my hand and said, [Suisui, from now on you are not alone, I will give you a home. 】

I retracted my thoughts and shook my head with a smile, [I have no family anymore. 】

After completing the hospitalization procedures, I put away the diagnosis form and was about to buy some necessities, when I met an acquaintance at the door of the store.

【Suisui? ] I raised my head and looked over, and it was Song Qing whom I mentioned not long ago.

[Song Qing, long time no see. 】

All in all, we haven't seen each other for almost ten years. We had promised to be each other's bridesmaids, but we had already broken the promise.

Probably because we have grown up, we are not as tense as before. We chatted at the milk tea shop near the orphanage.

[Why come to the hospital alone? Where is he? ] Song Qing looked at me.

I smiled faintly: [You mean Zhou Jingyan? I have divorced him peacefully, and if nothing else happens, he will get remarried. 】

Her eyes were a bit unbelievable.

Also, Zhou Jingyan and I used to love each other so much. Who would believe in divorce?

I turned my head towards the window and took a sip of my favorite taro milk tea. [The taste has changed and it is no longer sweet. 】

[You came to the hospital because you felt unwell? 】Song Qing asked me.

[I don’t feel any discomfort at the moment, but I won’t live long. 】I look like I’m talking nonsense.

Who knew that the next second, a slight sob came from my ear: [Wen Sui, you have gone too far. You didn’t tell me when you left the city, and you didn’t call me when you got married...]

I said nothing and listened to her complain for several minutes. Finally, I handed her a wet wipe and said, "I can't change things like birth, old age, illness, and death." 】

I finally said, as if begging for peace: "However, Song Qing, you are my only friend, I will leave it to you to bury me in the cemetery." 】

The crying in my ears got louder.

After staying in the hospital for a while, one day I received a text message from Zhou Jingyan to greet me: [Where did you buy that handbag last time? Anya likes it very much and wants to buy one too. 】

I almost couldn't hold myself back from swearing, and finally replied with one word: "Get out." 】

It showed that he was typing, and I sneered and added his contact information to the blacklist without hesitation.

Song Qing brought the fruit in and put it on the table, "He doesn't know about your illness?" 】

I threw the phone aside and started chewing on the apple, [He has no right to know. 】

After all, I don't need his pity and sympathy.

I thought this matter would be over, and Zhou Jingyan, a proud and arrogant person, would not harass me again.

That night I received a call from a strange place.

[Wen Sui, can you say goodbye? 】

Before he could finish his words, I hung up the phone and turned it off.

Zhou Jingyan has been really unusual lately. He used to not say a word for half a year, but now he calls me every now and then to harass me and even blocks me.

【Are you sick? ] I couldn't bear it and picked up the phone, wishing I could greet his ancestors.

[There are still your things where you lived before. Come back and take them away. 】Zhou Jingyan’s voice was a little impatient. I concluded that it was because I blocked his numerous numbers.

【Just lost it. 】My temper also got worse, and I still refused to talk to him properly. 【Not taking it away means that to me, it is garbage. 】

【Are you serious? 】His voice raised a level, and I suddenly remembered what was left there, 【Yes, such an ugly bear, was it made by you yourself? Wouldn’t it be bad luck for me to take it with me? 】

I ignored the roar on the other end of the phone and smashed the phone to pieces to see how he would continue to harass me.

5.

After being disturbed by Zhou Jingyan, my health became worse. I had to drink many bottles of medicine, and my hands were swollen.

Finally one weekend, I had a chance to sneak out and take a breather.

【Wen Sui? ] I froze and screamed in my heart that I was caught by the attending doctor, [Dr. Chen, what a coincidence. 】

[If I remember correctly, you should lie down and rest now, and you will take medicine soon. ] Dr. Chen is so serious and responsible that I want to send him a banner.

[You remember correctly, I did. ] I happily wanted to hide this matter and simply tell the truth, [However, I think choosing an urn is more important than taking medicine. 】

His hand holding the medical book paused, and the smile disappeared from his face, [Wen Sui, the mentality of treating a disease is very important, you can't give up, you know? 】

I nodded in agreement, [Dr. Chen makes sense, so I’ll leave first. That urn is very popular. If I arrive late, my reservation will be invalidated and someone else will definitely buy it. 】

Dr. Chen stretched out his hand and wanted to explain a few more words to me. A man got out of the car on the side of the road and stood next to me.

【This is? 】

He didn't intend to talk to Dr. Chen, but just grabbed my wrist. If looks could kill, I think I might have turned into ashes long ago, and wouldn't have to be taken to the crematorium to be burned.

【I don’t know. ] I took my hand out, smiled and said to Dr. Chen, [Don't worry, I'll be back as soon as I finish shopping. Go and get busy. 】

Dr. Chen had concerns, but ultimately said nothing.

I left Zhou Jingyan and wanted to stop a car on the road.

[I said how could you possibly divorce me so easily. ] Zhou Jingyan laughed and mocked me and said: [I didn’t expect that I had found a good home. 】

I turned my head and stared into his eyes, "Didn't you look for it first?" 】

Since Zhou Jingyan met Anya, he never came back to stay with me. His fever reached 40 degrees and he couldn't move. I called him to ask him to come back, but he said two words to me: "Boring." 】

Since then, I seem to have become extra strong and don't need anyone.

[Now I am asking you, when did you and him start? 】This voice is exactly the same as when he said I was bored.

That's right, it's the same person after all.

I calmed my breathing, not wanting to be angry any longer and make my health worse, [It was earlier than you and Anya. I divorced you just to be with him wholeheartedly. Can you get out now? 】

【temperature! Ho! 】He squeezed out two words through his teeth, ferociously wishing to kill me.

[Don't call my name, it sounds disgusting. 】I drove him away mercilessly.

Zhou Jingyan became angry, and the words he spoke were dozens of times worse than mine: [Why didn't I see that you were such a slutty woman because you were an orphan and no one loved you, as long as you were a man? 】

[Wen Sui, you are so cheap. 】

I sneered twice, feeling the blood all over my body flowing backwards, the sweet smell of blood filling my throat, and my head buzzing.

I wanted to slap him, but unfortunately I didn't have the slightest strength, "Yes, I'm cheap, anyone can do it, except you Zhou Jingyan!" 】

The sound was so loud that it attracted a lot of attention. Passers-by saw us pulling at each other. Zhou Jingyan couldn't afford to lose this person, so he turned around and got in the car.

When Song Qing arrived, she quickly helped me up from the ground and said, "What's going on?" 】

I shook my head desperately, blood overflowed from the corners of my mouth, and tears poured out, [Song Song, I hurt so much, it hurts so much...]

[Let’s go, let’s go find Dr. Chen. 】

The attack was so violent that my whole body ached as if someone had torn it apart. Before I lost consciousness, I grabbed Song Qing's hand and asked, "Can you help me buy the urn from that store in Nanjiao?" 】

I knew that I would soon turn into a pile of ash and live in that box forever.