Cherish the New Year

In order to get into a good university, I went to Internet cafes during holidays to check study materials. But my mother thought I was addicted to the Internet, so she sent me to an Internet detoxification center. I was tortured inside, but my mother thought I was just a rebellious teenager! When I committed suicide with a knife in order not to go back, she knelt down and begged me for forgiveness! 1. I stood upright, as if walking in a military posture, and walked out of the center of the network surrounded by power grids. The cramps in my stomach made me look pale. I didn't know how many stones I had eaten in the past three months. Stomach pain has long been a common occurrence, but I didn't dare to stop today. Mom was very happy to see how I looked now. She opened the car door and fought with those demons...

In order to get into a good university, I went to Internet cafes during holidays to check study materials. But my mother thought I was addicted to the Internet, so she sent me to an Internet detoxification center.

I was tortured inside, but my mother thought I was just a rebellious teenager!

When I committed suicide with a knife in order not to go back, she knelt down and begged me for forgiveness!

1.

I stood up straight and walked out of the center of the network surrounded by power grids as if walking in a military posture.

The cramps in my stomach made me look pale. I didn't know how many stones I had eaten in the past three months. Stomach pain has long been a common occurrence, but I didn't dare to stop today.

My mother was very happy to see how I looked now. She opened the car door and greeted those demonic doctors.

I didn't dare show any urgency and sat upright in the back seat.

My mother also got in the car. She seemed very satisfied with me now: "Yunyun, have you been happy these three months?"

I nodded stiffly and tried my best to squeeze out a smile, even though my heart was already screaming crazily, "Go quickly, go quickly!" But I didn't dare to show any signs of it, for fear of going back to that hell again!

We were silent all the way, and my mother looked at me through the rearview mirror from time to time. Although my stomach hurt so much that I broke into a cold sweat, I still sat upright and didn't dare to show any signs.

I never want to go back to that hell, not even to die!

"Yunyun, are you angry with mom?" She stopped the car and opened the car door with a serious expression.

My face was full of confusion, as if the memory of my previous life was slowly flowing out.

The senior year of high school was very stressful. I spent all my free time in Internet cafes. But I was not playing games or indulging. I was looking up information and studying. But, hey, who would believe it?

Then, my mother sent me to an Internet rehabilitation center for three months.

"Mom, I'm not angry. I will be obedient, Mom!" I spoke softly, my voice as thin as an ant. You are not allowed to speak loudly in the center of the net.

There was a trace of surprise on the mother's face, but she nodded with satisfaction: "It seems that my family has really changed for the better. We are no longer unruly, and we understand my mother's good intentions!"

With that said, she went straight home.

"Yunyun, are you coming?" My mother looked at me, who was still sitting in the car, puzzled.

"Okay!" My whole body trembled and I answered hastily. If you are slow to answer a question at the quitting center, you will have to insert a needle into your finger.

Every time I faint from the pain, but it doesn't help!

In order to welcome me, my mother made a big table of dishes, which were all my favorite food. I wanted to eat too, and I was also hungry, but I knew that I couldn't eat anything three days ago because

My stomach has been filled with stones!

"Yunyun, eat it." My mother looked at me kindly.

Looking at my mother's appearance, I thought of my roommate again in a daze. She said that her mother treated her like this when she returned home, as if it was an adult's guilt.

She thought her mother still loved her, so she told her everything, hoping to get even a little bit of warmth!

But the result was that she was sent back to the network center again, back to hell, and all the punishments were doubled.

"Arrived!" I was frightened, and my muscle memory made me stand up suddenly and stand in a military posture!

Every time someone calls someone with this tone, it makes me feel despair and madness!

"Guo Yunyun, you have to make me angry, right?" Mom put down her chopsticks and looked at me seriously.

I was frightened, fearing that my mother would send me to the rehab center again. The pain in my stomach disappeared in an instant under the fear. My face turned pale and I shook my head hurriedly.

"Mom, Yunyun is very good, don't send Yunyun back!"

"Yes, eat like this, eat like this." As I said that, I quickly picked up the chopsticks and wolfed down the white rice in the bowl.

This scene scared my mother!

"So..." She ran over, trying to grab the meal.

I was so frightened that I squatted on the ground and huddled in the corner: "No, don't hit Yunyun, Yunyun will be very good, will be very good, please!"

The stress response generated in three months is beyond my control.

"It's over... Mom must think I'm acting, Mom must think I'm trying to make her feel guilty!"

"Guo Yunyun, why are you doing this? You can't be like this. You want to please your mother. How can you show fear? You can't! Otherwise you will be sent back!" I roared crazily in my heart.

Two lines of tears flowed crazily, no, I can't vomit!

"Guo Yunyun, if you go back, you will die!!!"

However, my psychology was ultimately unable to withstand my physical reaction. Just when my mother came to help me worriedly, blood mixed with rice, and three or four pebbles spurted out of my mouth.

"It's over...I...will be sent back!"

A strong sense of fear and emptiness swept over me, and I passed out.

"Yunyun, what's wrong with you!" The last sound in this world was heard by my mother's anxious cry.

Mom... is worried. Maybe what my roommate said is not right? My mother really loves me and is worried about me. She doesn’t know everything that happened, and she won’t send me to an Internet rehabilitation center again?

I was really afraid that when I opened my eyes, I would be lying on the cold operating bed in the Internet treatment center, with silver sheets of electric shock attached to the temples on both sides of my head, and a scary doctor holding thirty thin needles standing at my feet like a demon. side.

I was really scared and I didn't dare to open my eyes.

But...what if...what if my parents were standing beside the bed, looking at me with worried faces?

What if they still love me?

"Huh huh..." I kept taking deep breaths, allowing my body that had lost consciousness due to fear to slowly recover.

Finally, I felt a touch of softness. I wasn't on a cold hospital bed. Am I...still at home?

I don't even know where I got the courage. My eyes opened a little.

What catches my eye is the pink room. It is the room that has haunted me for the past three months. My parents who once loved me arranged a warm and unique little world for me!

I...was not sent away!

I opened my eyes.

Dad is smoking. I haven’t seen him for three months. Dad is a little more vicissitudes of life. Is he worried about me? He and his mother said nothing.

Was it a quarrel?

My mother sat next to me a little angrily, and neither of them spoke, as if they were waiting for me to wake up.

"Don't tell your parents what's going on here, or they'll send you in!" My roommate's crazy and desperate screams still echoed in my ears!

It's just...it seems that it's really different. My parents still love me, right?

They didn't send me back!

"Don't believe them, don't!!! They will make you experience hell!" My roommate's screams and inner struggle made me war between heaven and man!

In the end, emotion still defeated reason. Perhaps, no matter how much suffering I suffered, I always believed that my parents loved me!

"Dad..." My voice was so small that I didn't even hear it clearly.

But my father turned his head and looked over, and my mother looked over too, and I saw the worry in their eyes.

Did I... bet right? They love me!

Sure enough, my parents are different. Do they...love me?

"Dad..." I shouted softly again. I wanted to open my hands and hug my dad, but the fear and fear in my heart prevented me from reaching out.

"Yunyun, you're awake..." Dad forced out a smile.

My mother glanced at me, turned and left without saying anything.

The horrific experience of these three months made me very sensitive. I subconsciously felt that something was wrong, but it was all covered up by that trace of warmth.

That is the love that belongs to Dad...

"Wake up..." I said secretly, for fear of disturbing the warmth and kindness. Maybe my parents are really different.

They were different from my roommate's family, I could tell them everything and they would pity me and they wouldn't send me in again.

Maybe... I won't say it yet, I will become very obedient so that they will no longer hate me.

I will never go to an Internet cafe to study again, so how can I blame them? They just made the same mistake that many parents make. How can any child go to an Internet cafe just to study?

I understand them, they don’t know what I’ve been through, they still love me, and they won’t send me back again.

Yes, that must be the case!

"Dad...hug...hug" I braved and spoke softly.

Then, I was wrapped in my father's warm embrace, and he picked me up.

The piercing pain in my hands couldn't stop me. I didn't know where the strength came from and hugged my father's neck.

His hand hugged me. Although I didn't know how many broken ribs made me hurt beyond measure, this pain was covered by that trace of warmth!

"Okay, Yunyun, drink the medicine." Dad's soft voice sounded in my ears.

"Sure enough, my parents are different. They are the best parents in the world!" The body that was tortured like a rag doll regained strength. It was the strength given by that trace of warmth!

I took the bowl my father handed me. There was warm soup in it.

I caught the medicine bowl tremblingly. I didn't dare to tell them everything. I was afraid that this trace of warmth would disappear. I tried my best to stop the trembling in my hands holding the medicine bowl.

"But that's it, children can't lie, you know?"

"The Internet Quit Center called and said that you listened to the advice of other girls, swallowed the stone yourself, and came back to pretend to be miserable."

"You are irresponsible for your body. Do you know that your parents will feel distressed?"

"You actually do this kind of thing just to surf the Internet. Do you know how painful it is for your parents?"

"The people from the Internet Quit Center will be here in a moment. You need to reform..."

Dad's voice was like a devil's whisper, completely shattering the warmth that was finally created!

"No...it's not like that!" I shook my head crazily, no, I can't let that trace of warmth leave!

I couldn't control my hands at all. As I trembled, the medicine bowl fell to the ground with a clatter!

"So, don't lie!" Looking at the medicine bowl I broke, my father's tone was a bit stern!

I shook my head desperately and my hands trembled. No, I want to speak out. I want to tell everything. I don’t want to go back. I absolutely can’t go back. Die! Don’t even want to die! ! !

"They...they took needles..." The endless fear made me unable to speak clearly.

I know, I finally know why my mother left, I finally know that all the warmth is fake, they... still want to send me back!

"You mean they pricked your finger with a needle?" Dad looked at me suspiciously and realized something was wrong.

I nodded wildly!

However, my father took one look at my ten fingers, and the disappointment in his eyes was not concealed at all!

"Guo Yunyun! You are still lying. There is not even a wound on your finger! Dad is so disappointed in you!" With that, Dad turned and left, closing the door heavily.

The world turned dark in an instant.

I looked at my ten fingers that I couldn't bend.

Yes...you can't see the wound.

Those thin needles have already penetrated deep into the bone marrow, so how could you see the wound? I was bending it hard just now, which was also internal bleeding. My fingers still looked crystal clear from the outside, but who would have thought that they were still full of rotten flesh inside!

"Hehehe..." I laughed!

The tears had long since dried up, and I smiled heartily.

I was wrong... My roommate was right. No matter what I did, when they found that the internet detoxification center could get rid of me as a burden, they would always find a reason to send us there.

No, I can't be taken back, I can't!

"Ah!!!" I didn't have any choice, I got out of bed suddenly.

"Crack!" The right leg that was habitually broken was broken again!

So what, it doesn't matter anymore, it doesn't hurt anymore, I can't feel any pain at all.

I lay on the ground, bent my hands that could not be straightened, and crawled towards the window with all my strength. I wanted to die!

I want to die before those demons come!

I would rather die than go back to that hell!

I crawled out of a bloody line. Finally, I tried my best to crawl to the bedside, and a shocking bloody trail was dragged out on the ground!

"Yunyun!" The door was opened, and I saw my parents running towards me like crazy.

I'm sorry, I don't believe you anymore...

I thought to myself and jumped down!